Bubbles scrape the chin. It's how this begins. I don't know why I feel the need to die in the pool. But I float and forgive the water for moving me where it wills. I once caused a panic in a public swim, a young child floating face down, seeking freedom from the noise above the water. I was obsessed with practicing for death, a fear of the thing driven by control of the thing. All of it a murky illusion, submerged beneath the waves of adults screaming for help.
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